As a result, I am actually overwhelmed. I have many different composition & arranging projects planned. I have recording projects planned, including some that involve other people besides myself. And on top of that, I need to practice. And that's just not happening enough...it's happening, but not enough.
I was able to get this done, though. It's a new recording and a video of my arrangement of Bruckner's Ecce Sacerdos from 2010.
Well, look...I'm sorry to complain like this again. If you listened to that video and noticed nothing wrong then I'm glad. But from my perspective, I'm just in kind of a slump. This pandemic and the routine and lifestyle changes it's brought has led me to dwell a lot on what I haven't accomplished yet that I expected to. I guess I'm in a "glass-half-empty" mood right now, which comes and goes. I don't want to be this way, but feel and thought are two separate entities, and I can't really control how I feel about this. I feel kinda depressed about music, I guess.
Some would probably suggest to take a break from music if I feel this way. But that won't do any good. I'd just miss it right away. And I've got people depending on me for the completion of things. And I've got some great holiday music ideas. So don't worry, I'm not stopping anything. I'm just gonna keep pushing through.
So bear with me here. I'll get myself back up again. It could be worse.
Take care and value music.